You would have been more fierce and even more fabulous than ever.
Your smile would have lit up every single room you entered.
Your laugh would have been echoed off the walls.
Today, you would have been 54.
You would have been wearing some ridiculously stylish outfit from a designer that I’ve never heard of before that you bought on sale, discounted from some store I’ve never even been to before.
You would have had back to back brunch-lunch-Starbucks-dinner plans all day long with all of your friends and family.
I would have called you to tell you happy birthday.
I can hear your silver bracelets clash together in that instant that you would have reached for your phone when it rings. And I would have heard them clanging around throughout our call as you animate our entire conversation with hand gestures even though you know that I can’t see them through the phone.
I would have sang to you, just like how you always sang to us on our birthdays.
You would have spent the entire phone call asking about me. Asking about my day, asking about what I was up to and asking about how I am doing, even though today is your birthday, and it’s supposed to be all about you.
You would have told me that you “love me to the moon and back” and I would have said it back to you.
And that wouldn’t have been enough.
I could have told you that I love you to Mars and back. Or to the sun and back. Or to Pluto and back.
But that still wouldn’t have been enough to explain to you how much you mean to me.
Today, you would have been 54
We would have been celebrating how remarkable of a woman you are. How courageous and compassionate you are. How chic and sensational your life is.
We would have been eating all of the chocolate cake (desserts first, as always!)
We would have been toasting to another incredible trip around the sun.
But now that you’re gone,
We reminisce about those birthdays that we shared with you. And the birthdays you shared with us.
We honor the extraordinary woman you were.
We cherish all of the laughs we shared together and the love we had.
We remember how courageous and compassionate you were. How chic and sensational your life was.
Today, like every other day, your legacy lives on in all of us.
I miss you, mom! Happy Birthday <3